bittersweet endings that make me want to stay, until i decide that i don't

yesterday, during my snorkel tour at turtle cove, i found a huge, beautiful spotted eagle ray. i had my group follow it to the edge of the reef and didn't care that we were late back to the boat. today, i went scuba diving for the first time after months of procrastinating. and then i went two more times right afterwards, cause i'm a little addicted now. tonight, i had my last sunset sail. we pulled onto the mooring with no moon and all stars. then we sat in the dark harbor and had leftover red wine and cigarettes over stories about sea life. tomorrow is my last day working for castaway and it's a full day trip. i think tomorrow night, after a couple of drinks, i can die happy.

but, i shouldn't. because i think the best is yet to come. 

sunday, i was invited on a 3 million dollar sail boat to the british virgin islands. last night my friend won another boat trip for 10 of her closest friends in a raffle contest at the bar. next week, i'm getting certified to scuba dive. next weekend, for a crew appreciation party, we're taking 3 of my captain's boats out to hans lollik. and thennn, there's a big bon fire beach party at night. 

if i survive all that, i'm leaving the island the following week. 

i think. 

unless more cool things come up to keep me longer.


...


i think we should all always live as if we're leaving.


cause man, that last stretch of everything is always so damn great.